Friday, June 25, 2010

Lucy in the Sky

I went through this odd phase when I was youngen: I preferred to skate with my rollerblades on the wrong feet. Why? Good question. I think maybe I found it easier to balance that way.

Lately, I’ve been so exhausted. And so busy. And so tired. (Did I mention that?)

I’ve been inclined – nay, compelled – to reevaluate how I allocate my time. Because…

Every. Minute. Of. Every. Day. Is. Scheduled.

I only blame myself … because we know I’m addicted to … well, many many things.

Credit to myself: I’ve gotten slightly better at sacrificing. Case in point: I haven’t played ultimate Frisbee (my dearly beloved pastime above all others pastimes) in almost 3 months.

THREE MONTHS.

Because I had to make choices. I had to pick priorities. I settled on: Religion. Relationships. Obligatory financial responsibility. (Code for “the cubicle I must attend to all day because that’s what you do when you’re a grown-up.")

I therefore, often, neglect (sometimes willingly, sometimes with tantrums, sometimes with a large dose of guilt) any and all of the following:

frisbeecleaningmyroomcleaningmycarcleaningmykitchenlaundrysleepingeatinghealthyfoodexercisingvisitingteachingridiculouslylongphoneconversationslongshowerssunbathingtoenailpaintingunnecessaryhygieneyouprobablydidn’twanttoknowthatsewingbakingwatchingfavoritetvshowsblinkingfinishingthevariousbooksihavestartedwritingvolunteeringvolunteeringvolunteeringvolunteeringdidimentionsavingtheworldandvolunteeringsleepingnappinggoingtobedbeforemidnightreadingnovelsreadinganythingreallyexceptonlunchbreaksplayingmyguitargardeningohyeahandsleepingetc

But occasionally. Occasionally these things happen. And I hold my eyelids open, breathe, and enjoy.

Because, oddly enough, having ridiculously simple dreams in a busy, complicated world is sometimes the most complicated thing of all. Gills v. Oxygen.

Like rollerblades on the wrong feet. Why? Good question. I think, maybe…

Friday, June 4, 2010

Fields of Gold

I'm simply in love with this quote. Enough so that I'm going to just pair it with a picture, and let it all speak for itself.

"Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it doesn't matter with me now. Because I've been to the mountaintop. And I don't mind. Like any man, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people will get to the promised land. And I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord." -Martin Luther King, Jr.

"Because I've been to the mountaintop...and I've seen the promised land."