welcome welcome sabbath morning!
i'm limiting myself to just one thought today
because i actually have like 50
[man these chapters are full of goodness!!]
but i decided 50 might get out of hand...
in the margins of this chapter, there's a faded word written in blue pen:
this chapter talks about the spirit world
[if you don't know what that is, go read the chapter]
essentially it's one stage of heaven which we enter after this life
i remember reading this chapter on August 11, 2005
[that's this thursday!]
my half birthday
the day this guy made his heavenly trip home:
this is mason. he is my brother.
is, not was.
i woke up that morning to my mom crying, and telling me that mason had been in a car accident.
the crowds of crying family and friends poured into the house that afternoon
i hid in the corner with his baby, my niece
then the crowds and piles of casseroles started to be too much
and i ran away
[fact: i almost always prefer to be around people unless i am really, truly sad about something. then i hide. this has only happened like 5 times in my life.]
so, i hid in my room the rest of the afternoon
then i left, and walked around the mesa temple grounds
[i think i speed-walked around the temple app. 30 times]
anyway, while hiding in my room, i read a lot of things
i scoured lds.org
and Alma 40 is one of the chapters i found, including verse 12:
"the spirits of those who are righteous are received into a state of happiness, which is called paradise, a state of rest, a state of peace, where they shall rest from all their troubles and from all care, and sorrow."
and then i read this quote, from a prophet:
"those from whom we part here, we will meet again and see as they are, the same person we knew and associated with in our mortal existence." joseph f. smith
the same person. the same brother that threw things at me (and/or the ceiling fan) and obsessively watched x-men and laughed really, really loudly sometimes.
on August 11, 2005, these are some of the thoughts that made me feel okay.
and thoughts like these are the reason i can write this entire blog without crying at all
[you KNOW this is a big feat for me]
because i know Mason is somewhere good
somewhere he deserves to be
and i know we all get to see him again
it's pretty amazing to believe in eternal families, isn't it?