Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Goodbyes are not for me.

(a photo with Chrissy because long roadtrip convos with Chrissy make me brave)

I am not a morning person, with rare exception.

Generally, the only time I voluntarily wake up early is if I have a plane to catch or a road trip to take. In these cases, I am too excited to sleep. The only other exception to my don't-make-me-leave-my-bed-unless-the-house-is-on-fire-and-only-if-it's-a-big-fire attitude usually fall into the I'm-too-anxious-to-sleep-and-my-mind-is-racing category.

I haven't slept past 6:30 or 7am in several days.

Of course, this often necessitates afternoon naps. I think I could marry afternoon naps if this marriage equality movement really takes off. The reason for my early rising falls into the last category listed above: my mind is very full lately and turns on the minute my eyes crack open.

But this blog post is about goodbyes, not mornings.

I am not one for goodbyes. I think this is because I am not a formal person, and goodbyes always have a tinge of stiffness to them. I'm prone to slipping out the side doors of parties and avoiding send-offs and final farewells. I think I just prefer my last interactions with people to be the real, everyday deal. These thoughts woke me up at 7am this morning, as I knew my coworkers were headed to work and I was not. A particular kind of sadness gripped me somewhere in the heart region and settled heavy in my chest. 

But really, I'm glad that my last interactions with my work friends involved Star Trek discussions while they chowed down on Taco Bell and played the office arcade. The real, normal stuff. I wouldn't have wanted cake and speeches and parting words. It's just not my way.

And now I'm off to work on saying goodbye to my condo, which is an entirely unglamorous process that involves scraping velcro off the wall. Don't worry, the aforementioned afternoon nap is definitely in the cards today :)

What's your take on goodbyes?


chrissyblake said...

I cry. about everything. I hate goodbyes. Im not good at them, insert awkward "i dont want this to end" hugs. I hate things ending regardless of the greatness that may be ahead. One thing I do NOT hate is that you put our picture up here and knowing that I have the same impact on you that you do on me. Stay brave. Positive Juju today too!

Brooke said...

you are just so brave and such a wonderful example. I'm so glad I've found this blog to help uplift me.

Goodbyes are something I'm beginning to deal with in these next few weeks, and they sure are difficult for me to even think about! Something that always helps me (and also creates a little lump in my throat) is a quote from Winnie The Pooh, "How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." Always gives me something to think about.

Good luck on your new adventure! Keep being awesome! :)

Kerry said...

GIRL. Seriously, I take a few days off from the blog land and everything changed over here!!!! I'm proud of you. You are very brave. And I can't wait to see what is next on your adventure! (also I am an EXPERT at unemployment! Just the very best! Should you need some helpful tips haha)

Unknown said...

I'm actually kind of big on goodbyes. In that I very much have a need to do them, not so much that I love them. But really, I'm always at church at least 10 minutes late because I need to say my goodbyes, and it takes me ages to leave a party, and even though I already went through the line, I have this awkward need to tell the bride goodbye at every wedding reception I go to.