Thursday, May 9, 2013

On California & Vulnerability

In blog world, occasionally you meet a friend online and the experience is something like this:


I feel extremely blessed to have several blog friends who would fit this category. This weekend, I'm going to California with three of them (Elise, Chrissy & Nichelle) to Disneyland and the beach and the Elevate Conference and did I mention Disneyland? I'm so excited I feel like I could dance and shout and cry and shimmy all at once. (I suspect most of those list items will actually occur this weekend.) (And a lot of snacks.)

Let's get real for a second: it's been awhile since my life made me feel as vulnerable as it does right now.

I'm all about risk taking. I love being brave, taking chances, leaping into the unknown, etc. But for a few years now, the general foundation of my life (job, location, etc.) has been pretty steady. I've done some pretty gutsy things along the way, but the general core of my life has been fairly consistent.

Several long stories short, it's all about to get turned on its head. My condo lease is ending in 3 weeks, and for a series of complicated reasons, I don't know what's going to happen next in my life. I don't know where I'm going to be a few months or even a few weeks from now. After nearly 4 years of living in the same square mile, it's definitely making me lose my footing a bit to realize it's going to change.

The entire feeling is unnerving. Exciting in its own way, but unnerving. But I'll tell you what I do know: it's all going to work out. And there might be some rough patches ahead, but I can handle them. All the best parts of my life have come right after semi-dark limbo phases like this one, and many of my most crucial turning points have hinged on my blindest moments. So experience and faith tell me that I have no need to fear.

But in the meantime, it can't hurt to pick up and forget my worries in California for a few blissful days!

Please follow our shenanigans on Instagram at the hashtag #wegotocali. I would so love to feel like I have you all along on this adventure, too!


Myke said...

I haven't figured out how or why this is, but vulnerability is where miracles happen. Happy miracles to you!

Tyson J Oliver said...

I'm the worst- I purposely avoid vulnerability for fear of change, which of course hinders my progress and keeps me from new experiences. I've been working on that the last little while.

chrissyblake said...

testing testing 123

FWIL Sentimental Blog Content said...

Dying over this GIF- and you know it's going to work out! You are too awesome not to have something remarkable happen right now!

Elisabeth Gee said...

Girl. I love this! You have the strongest testimony!! It inspires me every single day!