Thursday, December 8, 2011

writing: you are just a scar

bandaids come in all shapes and sizes
each perfectly tailored to conceal a wound
situated over broken flesh
and sealed at the corners
each bearing a story

and i must sit on my hands
and remember, "don't touch." 
"you. must. not. touch."

the temptation begs distraction

there were the same warning signs
and the subtleties between the lines
the ones that only i knew
almost like you saved them, just for me

and, for a moment,
there was you
in raw form
and all i could think was,
"i should have known you then."

but now
the feel of adhesive on my skin
and the taste of resolve between my teeth
are the strongest sensations i have

and, tucked inside the details,
a growing confidence

that one day, my hands won't be tied
and you will be just a scar
that i can run my thumbs over
and think
"this doesn't hurt me anymore."


Unknown said...

did you write this? It's beautiful. I can't figure out if there's a way for me to "follow" your blog?

katilda said...

oh thank you! and yes i wrote this. i can see a "Follow" link up at the top of my page...up next to Share and Report Abuse, etc. if you can't see don't know how to fix such things. gah!

kait said...

Katilda, this is absolutely breathtaking. It really resonates with me, like most of your writing.. and I am so happy that I stumbled upon your blog when I needed it most. You are a beautiful person and I am so glad you let your words bleed vulnerability so that we can all find strength in them. You are so strong. Thank you