when i'm old and wrinkly
i want to be able to look back and say
"i don't regret anything i did"
"i don't regret anything i didn't do"
i want to be able to say i went for it
i want to say i was brave
i want to be able to say that i asked myself,
"what do i have to lose?"
and when my only answers were pride and comfort
i want to say i stopped hesitating
i want to be able to sit down with my future daughter and say
guess what, baby girl?
your mama didn't play it safe
she took risks
she said words that needed to be said
even if she was afraid
she peeled the difficult phrases off her lips
even if they terrified her
she bought plane tickets
and went on road trips
because her heart told her to
even when it wasn't cheap
and it wasn't convenient
because, she had hope
and even when it didn't go the way she planned
she never once regretted it
it always felt better to say she tried
and because someday,
she wanted to be able to tell you
stop hesitating, baby
and go for it
and what are you waiting for?
and why not?
and she wants to say those words
like she really, really means them